It's 2:30 in the morning. I'm incredibly stressed and can't sleep.
I feel like I'm a terrible artist.
I end up comparing my work with other photographers all the time and keep coming up short.
My town is too small, and circles keep overlapping and I'm not incredibly okay with it sometimes.
After I get frustrated with the above, I want to smack myself because I feel like I'm acting like a 12 year old middle school girl.
I'm finding myself angry and frustrated with people a lot, and I've been cutting off some ends recently. Then I feel like I'm being judgmental and negative and that I just need to get over it and be nice again. Then I have the middle school girl situation all over again.
It's so expensive to run a business legally (location permits, liability insurance, etc.) and I'm getting down hearted trying to figure out how to make those expenses get paid for.
Truthfully, in my circles right now, I feel like the sloppy seconds.
I am sorry Emily. Prayers are said for you and remember you are God's child and he does not think of you as a second.
ReplyDelete:( Don't feel like sloppy seconds. I love, love, love the work you do and can't wait to do our family photos and a harp shoot with you. Anything at all I can do to help, just let me know. And you know what? Life is too short to surround yourself with people that make you feel bad. I think it's a good thing to prune out those people that bring you down. We spend enough energy on our families, on our businesses, on our homes, and on our real friends, that it is a waste to spend energy on those that won't spend the energy on us. It might seem cynical, but it will allow you to spend that energy on better things. Love you sis.
ReplyDeleteSorry that you are having a tough time - I have no experience of what it is like to run a business but I think you have a great deal to share and your photographs are amazing. I was listening to your most recent podcast episode and was struck by the enthusiasm you have when you are talking about your art and your new camera. Take a deep breath and try to focus on that passion and chip away at all the other things that are causing you stress - give yourself rewards after tackling something and above all be gentle with yourself. Big hug and prayers C x
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